I'm planning a character that I won't play for a year (actually, I'm planning 9, but that's not the point here), and I'd like to get some opinions. ( More info under the cut... )

In real life news, I passed another road test. Which also doesn't count. Apparently when I paid the $40 to have my permit re-instated after it was suspended for a year, and I asked if I had to retake a written test and they told me my old permit was fine, it wasn't fine. My old permit was deleted out of the computers after being suspended for a year. So I had to retake a written test. And now I have to keep this permit valid for 30 days before I can retake the road test.

When I found this out, I decided I was tired of getting so much misinformation (I'm convinced it was flat-out lies, but I'll give her the benefit of the doubt here) from the woman in the licensing office. I asked for the number to call her supervisor. She refused. I admit that I didn't handle her refusal well. I nearly got arrested for "disorderly conduct". After she lied to the cops, I walked out. They stopped me trying to drive out of the parking lot without a licensed driver in the vehicle. Their supervisor informed them that they couldn't arrest me on a citation, and they couldn't charge me with "driving on a suspended license" because the woman in the licensing office had been lying. (Yay for proof that she lied to the cops!) So I've got a court date on Oct. 27th for "driving without a licensed driver", which they won't let me just pay a fine for, and I can't take a road test until Nov. 9th. Which is dependent on them not suspending my permit in court.

Part of me wishes I just hadn't even bothered asking for her supervisor's number. And part of me wishes they had arrested me for disorderly conduct, because then Steve would have been forced to come home and take care of Brittany (because we don't have another guardian here in KY) and he would have seen the mess he left me with. (Granted, if I had tried to get my license in April when he got home, it -might- have been done by now, but that's not the only disaster I'm dealing with right now.)


In an effort to avoid the train wreck that is my life right now, I've been spending a lot of time working on my new characters (hence the discussion above). I even deleted a bunch of the old ones to make room for the placeholders I made to make sure I get the names I want next year. (Gamestop has a tentative, unofficial release date of Nov. 2nd, 2010, so that's sort of my goal for getting all these character histories a little more fleshed out.) I'm not getting rid of my Hordies, but I will probably end up switching to Ally temporarily. Horde is getting Goblins, which I have no desire to play, but Worgen and Draenei are so interesting and pretty. I honestly expect that I will be totally frustrated by the sudden rush of immature RPers playing "lol werewolf!" types at the beginning, so I might focus on my Horde girls until after the initial excitement wears off. We'll see. Bryan is also getting interested in WoW (at my suggestion) and he is a wolf-person like I'm a tiger so he said he wants to play a Worgen as soon as the expansion comes out. If it releases next year, though, he'll be deployed again, so I can probably get away with holding back at least one Worgen character until he is available to play.

I need to go shopping. So much. I have been wearing the same week's worth of laundry for 3 months. It's killing me.

The dogs are getting big. And the cats are always whiney and lovey when I go to feed them. Poor babies aren't used to being in the basement alone. I've been cuddling with them when I'm over there, but I have to be more concerned with spending time with Brittany and making sure she's cared for, which is an issue when I leave her with Janet. They'll get more attention when we get to NC. (And I know I've been saying that for 3 months, but there's not much else I can do. I've done everything they've asked of me, I've jumped through hoops and they've continued to lie and screw me over and there's nothing I can do about it because they are in charge and it sucks.)

Hope everyone else is faring better than me. I miss you all bunches!
~ Tig

I have another test appointment on October 8th. On September 17th, the tester wouldn't let me take the test because my front tire was bald and it was a safety hazard. I tried again on the 29th but I didn't remind my accompanying licensed driver to bring his license, so I got turned away again. I'm still living with Bryan and Janet. (EDIT: Oh, right, Brittany and I have been living on air mattresses in their living room since about the 10th of September so Jeremy [the renter] could move into our house. You may remember Bryan and Janet from when she took a two-week vacation to decide if she still wanted to be a mother and I was living there so I could watch their two kids while Bryan continued to go to work. /EDIT) I put WoW on Bryan's computer so I could use it to de-stress. I'm not getting addicted again, I'm just playing a few hours a week. It helps make sure I don't get too depressed (which has been difficult to fight lately).

Zoe originally had 10 puppies. I got rid of 4, and we were keeping Bear (the biggest), Shadow (the one Zoe tried to kill 3 times), and Penny (the runt). I also still had Tiger and Iris, who were claimed but waiting to be picked up, and this other black female I'm still trying to get rid of. I dropped Zoe at the local shelter this week, and I told them that she was a wonderful dog, great with Brittany and the cats, but she got aggressive towards the puppies and I couldn't afford any more emergency vet bills. They said they'd find a place for her to be the only dog, yay! And I paid the fee to have her spayed, because I intended to but I never had the time. Well, I woke up this morning and drove to my house to feed them (and the cats, who are in the basement because my renter's furniture was delivered this week), and I only saw 5 puppies. I thought maybe Penny had dug herself a hole and crawled out of the garage, because she did that frequently (Penny didn't want to stay in the pen), but she didn't come when I called her. So I went into the garage through the door to get the dog food bowls, and found her dead in the back of the garage. She had gashes on her neck, but Bryan said they weren't deep enough to be fatal and there wasn't any blood on the floor. He said there were several explanations for why she might have died, but the big thing is that she was the runt. She was half the size of the other pups, and Bear is almost big enough to look like her father instead of siblings. She wasn't growing very fast, and even though the vet said she was healthy, she was definitely weaker than the others. She got tired faster during our trips to the park. But she lasted 3 months, and I really thought she was going to be fine. Now she's just another statistic, another stereotypical dead runt. I was really attached to her. I bought her a little pink camo collar, and she was going to be my dog. I'm still keeping Bear for Steve and Shadow for Brittany, but I'm really upset about this. And of course, I was stupid and I called my mother and said I felt guilty for not being there to break up the fight and save her, and she said "Well, it's your fault. If you had gotten rid of the others like we told you before, they wouldn't have been there to kill her." She might as well have just shot me and gotten it over with. (EDIT: She also told me to get rid of all but Bear, because "Brittany is too young to know the difference, but Steve expects to have a dog when he comes home." And she has continuously told me to get rid of them and the cats because we can't afford them. To her, it's no big deal. She's not an animal person. But to me, that's like giving up Brittany because we can't afford her: not an option. I love her, and I love them. Brittany would know the difference if I got rid of Shadow. That's her dog, and she knows it. She asks about Shadow every day, even when I don't mention puppies or anything. She wants to go with me to feed them, so she can see her dog. She holds Shadow's leash when we take them to the park. She's smarter than I ever expected, and my mom doesn't get to see that every day so she has no idea. /EDIT)

I'm doing a little better now. Everyone* says I shouldn't blame myself, because she's the runt and we should have expected her to die, but I really thought I could take care of her. I feel like if I'd done more, she would have been fine. She was just a poor innocent puppy, she didn't do anything wrong. (So much for doing better.)


(*Everyone: Bryan, Janet, Janet's mom who has like 8 dogs, Steve, Jeremy who is renting my house.)

I started my first period since April today. I didn't worry about not having my periods since I've been so stressed out, but Janet started hers yesterday and we think the hormone increase jumpstarted mine. I'm starting a new birth control on Sunday, now that I know I'm still healthy. I had a PAP smear in August and everything was normal so I wasn't scared, I was actually enjoying not having them. I might go have my thyroid checked out though, just in case.

Brittany is doing great. She's incredibly smart, and surprised me this week by helping me with the dishes. I gave her the clean silverware basket and showed her the drawer, and told her she needed to match the big forks with the big ones in the drawer, and the small forks, and the big spoons and the small spoons. She got everything in the right place. We've been working on big and small with a Finding Nemo picture book that has this great picture of the school of fish (ahaha... ha?) and their parents. She's also been helping teach Bryan's 3-yr-old daughter Sarah, who is 6 months older than Brittany but further behind in her development. Sarah is going to preschool a year early like Brittany is supposed to (I didn't get Brittany into preschool here because we were supposed to move and there is limited class size). Sarah doesn't know colors or shapes, but Brittany answers all the questions we've been asking Sarah. Both girls are still working on 1-10, and haven't gotten the alphabet, but I was so proud of Brittany when she started showing off what she knew. I had been worried that she was behind because I hadn't spent enough time with her, and that she'd have a permanent learning disability and it would be my fault, but she's picking things up very quickly and I'm seeing that she knows more than she shows me sometimes. Competition is really bringing her out of her shell, and I'm glad to see it. I am going to take her to a dentist in NC though, because she is still having trouble forming certain shapes with her overbite. I don't know if we need to do anything about that now or just wait until her adult teeth grow in, but I figure the dentist will know (or he'll know who to send me to).

Of all the stuff I don't have right now, I miss my clothes the most. It's October now, and it's getting colder. I want to wear my scarves. Plus I haven't worn a skirt in over 3 months and I want to feel pretty. *pout* I might go out and buy a new outfit, just so I have something that isn't the same stuff I've worn every week since August.

I miss my computer too. I've been journaling and writing stories by hand. I never realized how much paper I could go through when I had these livejournals.

It's past my bedtime, so I'll post more later this weekend.
~ Tig

KY, not NC. Yeah, I'm still in KY.

In June I reported that I'd passed my driver's test. When I went to get my license, they said my permit had been suspended for over a year and I needed to deal with the medical review board to get it reinstated. I specifically asked if I would need to retake my driver's test, and they said no, my test would be fine because it was their oversight to let me take it, and I shouldn't be punished for that.

I went to my doctor, my old neurologist, I had a new EEG done, and after everything was approved by the KY Dept of Transportation, I was told to take the $40 reinstatement fee to the local office and get my license. So I went up there yesterday, and my permit is successfully reinstated.

But apparently the office worker who told me the old driver's test would work was mistaken. Not lying, that implies that he -knew- he was wrong, and told me misinformation intentionally, and I don't think people are that mean. The fact is that because my permit was suspended at the time, the test is void and using it to give me a license would be illegal.

So I asked for the next available testing appointment. And I explained that I'm PCSing with the military, so I'm on a bit of a time crunch. I'm taking it again on September 17th. >_< But at least now I know what a "turnabout" is, roflmao.


In other news, Steve got to Afghanistan safely and made a few friends in his unit, one of which plays WoW and apparently has 6 80's. I told Steve I was quitting WoW, and he laughed and said he'd be able to bring me back when he got home. It was frustrating, but just more proof that we're better off as bff's than spouses.

I guess that's it. I need to get back to cleaning before janet gets home.
~ Tig

Look guys, I'm not dead! ^_^

Which is rather surprising, considering how I've been living the last two months. But I'm headed to Walmart in a minute, so I'll post a synopsis now and a longer post tonight.

Steve went back to NC with all the stuff in the moving truck. I was still in the KY house with an air mattress, a laundry bag of clothes, a broken armchair and TV with one speaker blown (which we're leaving for the guy renting the house), one skillet that I washed each night, and the PS3 with 4 DVD's to entertain Brittany. No cable, no laptop, no games.

I did get all my doctor stuff done, and I'm approved to drive once I send the $40 reinstate fee (which is going out in the mail Monday).

My friend Bryan called me a few weeks ago and said his wife wanted a vacation, so she left and I'm living with him right now so I can watch his two kids.



That's Michael, Brittany, and Sarah. Aren't they adorable?! I took them to Walmart, and this woman asked if it was hard raising twin girls, lol.

My birthday was relaxing, and I bought Batman: Arkham Asylum which is a fantasic game and very good stress relief after a long day of chasing kids.

I'll post more later, but if you have specific questions, feel free to ask. ^_^
~ Tig


MORE:
I've quit WoW. Pretty much permanently.

Oh, and Steve and I are probably getting divorced.
We've been fighting since he came home in March, basically. I love him, and he says he loves me, but he seems happier playing video games than spending time with me. And him playing games all the time makes me want to play games all the time, which makes Brittany lonely and neglected. I need to be more mature, for her, but I don't want to drag him into adulthood kicking and screaming. He's a great guy, and we've discussed it calmly already and he said he still wants to be my friend. I joked that my mage would be devastated, losing two guys she cares about (his two characters) and he said he thought we'd still RP together even if we got divorced. I'm glad he planned to stay friends, because I really do care about him and he hasn't really done anything wrong. We just... have different life goals, I guess. He wants to be a frat boy for a while longer, and he's entitled to that because he's young and everything, but frat boys don't make good husbands or fathers. They can make good friends, though. :)

I'm still going to NC. If he grows up on his own, we might work it out. But even then, I am not totally mature myself, and I am afraid we will have trouble raising kids if we're trying to raise each other as well. If it doesn't work out, I'll head back to KY with Brittany. That's where my stable friend base is right now. (Please don't take that as an insult, guys. I miss y'all dearly, but I own a house in KY and these are the people who've been here through the deployment and my truck breaking and everything. Y'all are still my friends, but everyone from I.S. is all spread out now. That's why this journal is so useful for connecting with everyone.)

I'm making Chinese food for dinner, so I have to start now, but I'll check this again in the next few days. Take care everyone!
~ Tig

I don't know how many of you know what the "triple threats" were, but back in the 1940's and 50's these were the film stars who could act, sing, and dance. Disney is -trying- to revive this idea (and failing miserably, IMO). So I thought I'd compare the triple threats, from the 40's to now, and add some commentary here and there. Although, nobody really dances anymore, but I'll give them credit if they can act and sing.

( List under here :) )

( Stuff about Disney and racism, although not about Hercules yet )


In news that actually pertains to my life, Steve got his moving leave paperwork approved, so he'll be home Monday. We are picking up the moving truck that morning and we should be leaving Tuesday morning (because we want a night in our bed together, tyvm). So, yay!
~ Tig

I would give my soul to be able to draw like this. Or even this, although I prefer the realistic over the anime style. And this one made me gigglesnort. And I found a pin-up (and a weird pin-up)! But seriously, some people are so extremely talented!
(Hey Kris [and anyone else who plays WoW], do you recognize that chick's hairstyle? It's gorgeous, and I want it in-game but I don't think I've seen it before, so maybe the artist created it.)

Yes, each of those words is a different picture. And I am as green as my orc right now.
~ Tig

UPDATED: I was mad at a girl on my server, who rolled a Blood Elf hunter but uses Eyes of the Beast to "transform to cat form" like a druid. She got mad because I wouldn't RP with her, and I explained most people don't like it when you break lore and don't play your class. I suggested she roll a Nelf or a Tauren, and she said her dad played an orc but "Tauren are too ugly!" *twitch*

She has obviously not seen these. They are so beautiful!
~ Tig

I'm putting this here to remind myself to do some research into whether or not there were racism claims when Hercules came out. I'm watching it tonight with Brittany, and noticed that the Muses are black gospel singers. I'm curious if there was as much controversy surrounding that stereotype as there has been concerning The Princess and the Frog. I was only 12 when it came out, so I'm sure I didn't even know what racism was back then, much less have an interest in researching or fighting it.
~ Tig

So, I spent 7 hours last night/this morning, trying to get screenshots of my girls in perfect poses. Cheering, crying, dancing, riding their mounts, playing with their pets... The result was 213 pictures. I'm debating taking some more right now, while it's light (because some of them are dark due to me taking them between 10pm-5am), but we'll see what I can come up with.

They're backwards from the order I took them in, and I divided them up into folders based on which alt it is (and what the tag is on my community).
death knight Tigeera, blood and slaughter
druid Tigerhoof, yarr matey!
hunter Tigerrose, all your pink are belong to me, although I wouldn't mind seeing "pretty in pink" on icons too :)
mage Tigriis, ice queen
paladin Tigrelia, in the name of justice!
priest Tigeyral, crazy cat lady
rogue Tiggina, anti-social singer
shaman Tigertotem, good wolf
warlock Tigtig, Thrall's groupie
warrior Tigermane, lone wanderer (and really, I need a new tag for her)

*bats her eyelashes and hopes people will make pretty captions and icons and stuff*
~ Tig

Images meme

-Post 12 pictures you currently have on your hard drive that you think are self-expressive.
-No captions! It must be like we're speaking with images and we have to interpret your visual language just like we have to interpret your words.
-They must already be on your hard drive - no googling or flickr!
-You don't have to answer any questions about any of your pictures if you don't want to. You can make them as mysterious as you like. Or you can explain as much as you like.

( Self-expression found here )

That was fun. And it explains a lot about me, in a sort of subtle and confusing way. It's not as much a story, as my favorite pictures from my computer. Tada!
~ Tig

Yes, I'm depressed. I know because I want to puke, and I hate puking. (I always told my friends they never had to worry about me being bulimic, because even when I feel sick I can't force myself to throw up because I don't want to.)

I want to sit and cry and be emo. But I feel like I shouldn't want to do that, because I'm an adult and I should be stronger than that. And the fact that I still want to, knowing that I shouldn't want to, makes me hate myself. So I'm fighting back tears, yelling at myself in my head, and it's making my head and my back and my stomach hurt.


In good news, I went to the ER to have them x-ray my toes, which are not broken or dislocated. When they were getting my vitals (before the x-ray) they asked when my last period was (which is standard procedure). I said "Umm... end of April?" She looked at me and asked "Are you pregnant?" I giggled and said "I hope so! But the last time I checked, like 3 weeks ago, I wasn't." So she ordered a pregnancy test before the x-ray, to make sure it was safe to do the x-ray without potentially frying a baby.

I'm not pregnant. :( But, again, my toes are just severely sprained instead of broken or dislocated, so they gave me painkillers and sent me home. I'm trying to focus on the good things right now, instead of leaning towards unhappiness like I have been lately. (It's not working very well, but I'm trying.)


I've decided I need cool icons for my WoW character journals. So in an effort to make myself not so depressed, I'm going to take some screenshots before bed, and I'll iconize them when I get up. (I've been inspired by a few I've seen lately, including:


and


Side note: This person also has some epic Dr Who icons, like:


Off to take pretty pictures of my girls. If anyone would like to volunteer to add text to pictures, I can make a new album in my photobucket and collect all the screenshots there for your viewing/stealing/iconing pleasure. Just let me know and I'll post a link here tomorrow when I start organizing my screenshots. (My screenshot folder has something like 4000+ pictures. In my defense, I've been playing for almost 3 years. But yeah, I'll have to pick out only the ones of my RP girls in their RP outfits, as opposed to their combat outfits. Lol, I'm such a girly girl.)
~ Tig